Dear Rachurnthatbutter,

I'm sitting right next to you HOLY CRAP you just jumped on me. You know what I think is funny? How like the second thing you did after seeing me, post-anaconda, was played what if I die on you like this. This time I was able to quickly wrangle free unlike before...when the oxygen in my lungs was slowly depleted and I ALMOST DIED by your hands!!!!! Well, more your entire body.

So anyway, it's been good to be here. I had been waiting to see you for so very long, and I thought about it a lot. There are certain things that only you get about me, and I think that's super cool. You just called me for dinner in a French accent. I'll finish this later.... And to answer your question, water.

Okay I'm back. Hey, remember when we went to the range today? That was intense. I don't think I've ever been so shaky in my entire life. Except maybe when I gave my first big speech in Spanish. That was rough. Aaaaaand you're sitting next to me again, creepily licking that mango bag thing. You know how I just zoned out? This is what I was thinking about...again. How it's so interesting that we are all different. Different tastes, different preferences, different desires, different dreams. I might hate orange creamsicle, but you like it. I might like soccer, you might like mud wrestling. I might get along with Alice but not Damien, but Alice and Damien get along really well. You might want to get married on the beach, I might want to get married in a church...or on a hilltop... or in a barn... you know I haven't really decided yet. I don't think much about my wedding, but this entire string of thought was spurned on by that commercial we saw of those people getting married in a pool. But we are all different, and we know it, so why do we try to change for people? IT'S SOOO STUPID but we all do it!!! In one way or another, but especially to earn the acceptance of people. What one person likes, another person is bound to dislike. And if the person you are trying to change for does not accept you the way you are, then you should probably take a second look at your relationship with said person. Thank God He's in charge. That He is all-knowing and can intricately piece together every aspect of our persons, and ultimately for His glory. Following Him, we never have to be anyone but ourselves because He knows just what to do with us and just who to place in our lives. I'm rambling, but this is actually rather clear for my mind, so I'm ok with it.

NOW I am thinking about how the more I'm in suburbia, the more I realize I really want to escape to nature. Who does that make you think of? That's right. Kevin Armitage and his awesome Yosemite video with that super strange rock climbing man. Also, the older I get, the more I fall in love with nature. The more I feel the Lord's presence. I feel a gust of wind and know that it once grazed the face of Adam...or Esther...or David...or Jesus. Or I will look at the stars and know that someone across the world is looking at the same star. At the same time I feel closer to the Almighty God but am humbled by how insignificant I truly am. It's COOL. I need to be humbled more in that way.

Your mom just offered to make me a chocolate milkshake. ACCEPTED.

Unreceptive of your mango bag or your knuckle sandwich,
Bectastic